Perhaps some of us appear impassive because we know the true value of emotions... We do not run around uttering words meaninglessly... You call us assholes because we refuse to acknowledge what you think you feel... It is easier for you to love because you do not know what love is...
You string along seamlessly and find joy in everything because you neither understand yourself nor do you emotions... With antiquated concepts and notions of how things should be or are, emotions derived from or influenced by books, passages and quotes... Your emotions and how you understand them are a borrowed notion.
If you were told to explain what you feel in your own words you'd be lost... You'd argue that others are more articulate or that it's a "feeling that you can't explain" as you shy away from the fact that you might just have no idea... You're like this because the emotions you've come to understand are not your own...
They say that after truly loving once, one has to die (figuratively) before being able to love again... It's the kind of emotion that once lost can cut you in half... The kind of thing that does not leave you the same afterwards... Creates people with darker auras and fuels cynicism or Perhaps people are merely scared of showing their emotions because they're selfish and only truly look to protect ourselves you may argue.
Or perhaps true strength lies in being able to gather yourself and come back stronger, what-what... They may be right... Perhaps those of us that choose to love ourselves are weaker. Perhaps it's just easier to use previous heartbreak or being "broken" as an excuse to not be expected to commit fully...
But then again that's not human nature... We all yearn for that something...someone... You could try to and succeed in understanding someone's mentality and train of thought but no one can ever fully understand someone else's reality...
Draw strength from what gives you life... Stop measuring your emotions against other peoples' ... Do you love who you love because they love you back... If they were to stop loving you tomorrow would you still love them next year?... Are your emotions conditional or subject to reciprocation...?
"If you were to turn into a snake tomorrow and began devouring humans, and from the same mouth you devoured humans, you cried out to me, "I Love You!" Would I still be able to say "I Love You," the same way I do today?"... Gin Ichimaru (Bleach)
There are distinctively 2 kinds of people... People that find love and people that build love... Love found burns bright on the pretext of expectations and leaves the undergoers in an ecstatic sense of suspension...it's too large an emotion to hang from such a thin string...
It's the kinda shit that people should build... No one's emotions should attempt to mirror others'... Do not base your relationships on the apparent perfection of someone else's... Blessed are those able to build relations without external influences... Even me with my "to hell with the world" attitude find it difficult to rid my mind of the negatives people have to say about what you're tryna build... What you can build is usually stronger than what you can find...
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Uuuuh 😩😩😩... Uuuugh... I always lose the plot of these things... What was I even talking about?... Yeah , whatever ... Point is don't judge apathetic behavior if you don't know what taints a man's soul...
By: Tommy Nambahu junior
