Mirrors

Weird how moments in life are punctuated by sessions in the mirror... It's those moments when the B.S is cut and you're forced to you see yourself as you really are.

Or how sometimes you would be out with some friends having fun, probably drunk and you go to the bathroom, wash your face and look at yourself in the mirror like "TF am I doing"...and you try to get a grasp on what you're doing with your entire being...

People tend to come back different from sessions with the mirror no matter how short it is. Our lives tend to get into a monotonous rhythm, where we semi-subconsciously drift through things. Mirrors or probably having to look at yourself allows you to take stock of what you're doing or how far you've come.

Forgo the vain glances at yourself and you realise that it's almost as if you live between sessions in the mirror, moments of immeasurable clarity...

Everyone sees you, but no one sees you as you see yourself. Are you happy with the being you see in the mirror...and leave your vanity outta this...though I do try avidly to avoid being too belletristic, I say this... mirrors are the windows to the soul...

You find that people are all just extensions of or physical manifestations of they're emotions... Some are significantly better at masking them than others when in public... But you can't hide your feelings from yourself... This is what mirrors represent... They make the truth palpable, they give your emotions and existence a face and force you to look at it as it is...

We all believe ourselves to be better than the shallow beings we actually are. Are you who you see when you look straight in the mirror?

By: Tommy Nambahu Jr

Knowing

Introspection is defined as the examination of one's own conscious thoughts and feelings. In psychology the process of introspection relies exclusively on observation of one's mental state, while in a spiritual context it may refer to the examination of one's soul.

The ability to understand people lies within understanding yourself and understanding how people feel about themselves. Some would call it psychology / the study of the human mind, but that implies that there are prefixes and that we have predetermined States of mind and thought patterns, Which  couldn't be more wrong.

If there's anything I've learned its that people are different, not just as they act, but more importantly as they think... People can never be classified... We aren't animals... But if anything, understanding the nature of people only leads to disliking them... We tend of enquire about things we don't really want the answers to... Is knowledge really power?

The most intellectual among us say Omniscience is an impossible pursuit. Change is probably the precursor to this impossibility... We can't know everything because the state of everything is ever-changing...

What if I told you that he who knew the least amongst us was the most intelligent? Would you trust it? :)

Lemme explain... There's been one unarguable truth amongst the pursuers of Omniscience,  that "The more you learn, the less you know"... Knowledge comes with understanding how little you actually know...

He who knows least, has a greater grasp on his existence... Those that know more tend to be darker and more pessimistic... Less becomes of the world, the more you know.

Knowledge does not come with power nor responsibility ,it comes with wisdom and wisdom comes with regret ... the more we grow, the less becomes of us...

Knowledge is a triviality the pursuers of omniscience chase ... we cannot become as intellectual as we want without loss of self... 

Having said all that... It is still better to know than not to... One should never opt for blindness when seeing is an option... Do not choose to be blind because you don't like what you see... See and embrace the bullshit ... You might be better for it. 

By: Tommy Nambahu Jr

Cynicism

Ever find times when you feel that people really just ain't shit...? Used to feel like that a lot. Happens when people keep failing you.

Sometimes I feel I think more of people then they think of themselves... See so many people around me that have the potential to be "more" but are content with where they are.

Some people just call it cynicism... Or perhaps the feeling is a result of how people compare to the high value one places on oneself... Which falls besides having an ego.

If I told you the most "Condescending" ... "Patronizing" ... Person you know probably just values you more than you value yourself , surely you wouldn't trust it... Of course not ... Its easier for you to judge then understand... Its societies defining characteristic , knowing the "what" (he's an asshole) but not bothering to understand the "why"...

Cynicism comes with meeting people and understanding that not everyone wants to or is interested in bettering themselves... Seeing people apply the double standard to their daily lives and having selective morality over certain things and living without even a smidge of introspective makes you less eager about people.

The shit about being extrospective is it has a tendency to kill relations... Thing is people dont want to be seen as they are.
I mean is it really condescension if one has greater faith in himself than he does in others? Does someone else's egocentrism or narcissism make you any less of a person?... Or is it a principle you dislike because you were raised to do so.

Or lemme guess you're one of the many that put up a forcefield of humility because you think this makes you a better person... The hypocritical paradox in this thesis though...

Is it really wrong for one to be vain , if their vanity is generated from a sense of self / pride , and not belongings or status?... The best of us are probably the most vain ... Though we don't all embrace it.

Vanity pushes effervescent growth... The need to want to be a better version of yourself ...or perhaps the true pursuit of vanity lies under pursuing omniscience...though I can't help thinking that knowing more makes you more of a cynic ... But that's a topic for another day...

Yeah , embrace your vain self ... Though I don't condone the whole loud vanity thing , nah ... But that false humility we throw around to regulate relations and be bearable to people you can't bear ... That shit should be stopped ...rather be true to yourself and be thought of as an ass by the shallow people that think it shallow of you to hold a high opinion of yourself...

Wait , what was all this even about?...

Probably went way off topic ... Was there even one ... Eeeh ... Guess they aren't called random thoughts for nothing...