Cynicism

Ever find times when you feel that people really just ain't shit...? Used to feel like that a lot. Happens when people keep failing you.

Sometimes I feel I think more of people then they think of themselves... See so many people around me that have the potential to be "more" but are content with where they are.

Some people just call it cynicism... Or perhaps the feeling is a result of how people compare to the high value one places on oneself... Which falls besides having an ego.

If I told you the most "Condescending" ... "Patronizing" ... Person you know probably just values you more than you value yourself , surely you wouldn't trust it... Of course not ... Its easier for you to judge then understand... Its societies defining characteristic , knowing the "what" (he's an asshole) but not bothering to understand the "why"...

Cynicism comes with meeting people and understanding that not everyone wants to or is interested in bettering themselves... Seeing people apply the double standard to their daily lives and having selective morality over certain things and living without even a smidge of introspective makes you less eager about people.

The shit about being extrospective is it has a tendency to kill relations... Thing is people dont want to be seen as they are.
I mean is it really condescension if one has greater faith in himself than he does in others? Does someone else's egocentrism or narcissism make you any less of a person?... Or is it a principle you dislike because you were raised to do so.

Or lemme guess you're one of the many that put up a forcefield of humility because you think this makes you a better person... The hypocritical paradox in this thesis though...

Is it really wrong for one to be vain , if their vanity is generated from a sense of self / pride , and not belongings or status?... The best of us are probably the most vain ... Though we don't all embrace it.

Vanity pushes effervescent growth... The need to want to be a better version of yourself ...or perhaps the true pursuit of vanity lies under pursuing omniscience...though I can't help thinking that knowing more makes you more of a cynic ... But that's a topic for another day...

Yeah , embrace your vain self ... Though I don't condone the whole loud vanity thing , nah ... But that false humility we throw around to regulate relations and be bearable to people you can't bear ... That shit should be stopped ...rather be true to yourself and be thought of as an ass by the shallow people that think it shallow of you to hold a high opinion of yourself...

Wait , what was all this even about?...

Probably went way off topic ... Was there even one ... Eeeh ... Guess they aren't called random thoughts for nothing...