The Motion

There are setbacks or rather actualities we are never ready for... Things we feel we've grown past or overcome.

I feel there's nothing worse than realizing the truth after so long... You feel you've come this far only for it to all turn to shit at the introduction of an unexpected event.
Realizing you are in essence not the person you thought you were and have not at all grown... Your emotions and actions are still tied to past events and people... The feeling that what you are leaving behind is where you belong.

In our existence there are 2 realities ... "Where we are" and "where we want to be"... We all strive to be where we want to be ... But it happens more often than not that we end up realizing that where we were is where we've actually always wanted to be , and are often faced with the prospect of giving up what we've gained on the way to realizing this...

The feeling that within the strength you've grown a greater weakness emerged... One in which you long for traits you had previously possessed and lost in growth...

We often find means to convince ourselves that what we are doing is satisfactory and is in an actual sense what we want to do... The lies we tell ourselves...

But then again , why hold onto something that has forsaken you?... That is a question much easier answered when the "something" isn't something that's part of who you are or a defining characteristic...
To grow means giving up your ability to walk so you can learn how to fly... But what happens when you give up your ability to walk and realize you don't know how to fly?...

It takes great character to keep moving after you find yourself back where you started ... I was never ready... Nothing was the same ... Though it remains monotonous...